Showing posts with label Young Meg. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Young Meg. Show all posts

Sunday, February 10, 2013

The Audition

I wrote this short essay in my senior year of high school; my teacher, Mrs. Kohn, was so impressed by my writing that she insisted I be put in her Honors English class. I have a two-inch binder in which I've saved essays and papers I wrote in high school and college, and I recently dug it out of my storage unit. As I flipped through it, I was amazed at two things--first, how far I've come in terms of writing mechanics; and secondly, by how little my voice as a writer has changed. There's something comforting in knowing that even though I've grown, learned, and changed in many big ways, I've kept that one quality of myself that makes me...well, me.

Anyway, I thought I'd share the essay here, and in future, I may share other things I wrote as a teenager and then as a college student. It's interesting--to me, anyway--to see how I've progressed but also how many parts of my personality have remained strong, and have always shone through in my writing.

Here's the essay I wrote that so impressed Mrs. Kohn (by far one of the finest teachers I ever had); it's about auditioning for my school's nationally-recognized jazz choir.

The audition loomed before me like a dark grey storm cloud about to start pouring rain on my head. I could not believe I was actually trying out for Jazz Choir. Playing the clarinet for Mr. Gaesser was hard enough, but sing? The prospect made me shake with nerves.

The whole day, I drove my friends crazy with my nervous, half-crazed predictions of the audition. "Sing for us, Megan," they implored, but I would not, as if by singing to my friends I would jinx the audition. Not just any audition, but THE audition.

Just a few hours before I was to try out, I tried to sort out my jumbled thoughts. "I can sing," I told myself. And suddenly, a calm came over me. Why be nervous? I knew that I could sing well enough to obtain a spot in that choir, simply because I love to sing.

The time to audition came. I walked into the music room, determined not to let Mr. Gaesser make me nervous. As I strutted into the music room, however, my confidence again deserted me once I had given my cheery "hello" to Mr. Gaesser, and I began to feel like I was one inch tall.

Mr. Gaesser sat behind the big black grand piano, which seemed larger than life that day. I was told to stand next to the piano.

I sang the required scales and my prepared song, all the while feeling like it was the worst I had ever sung in all my life. To my ears, my voice sounded weak and too soft. But I sang for Mr. Gaesser, wanting to prove that I could sing. I barely noticed the rest of the room, the music stands and chairs stacked in the corner. I only noticed that big black piano, and the man sitting behind it, his expression unreadable.

Then it was over, and Mr. Gaesser was saying, "Good job, Megan." I left the music room and walked out to my car, not knowing the outcome of THE audition, but feeling a sudden sense of pride in knowing that I had tried.


P.S. I ended up making jazz choir.


Mrs. Kohn gave me full points for the assignment, and left comments like "excellent opening" and "A beautiful essay--excellent description." At this point in my academic career, I already enjoyed writing, but a year with Mrs. Kohn made me even better, more excited to write. I've never looked back.

As for the choir, it was a great experience; and I've always loved being able to brag I was part of it--Mr. Gaesser is well-known in California and in the national jazz community for turning out excellent young musicians.

Five of us came home from our first semester of college to sing at the
Monterey Jazz Festival over Labor Day weekend.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Little Wordy Girl

Communication for me has always been easier in written form. When I talk I am fast, I am loud, and I am sometimes downright obnoxious about it. I don't mean to be, it's just my passion coming forth. Fortunately, I've cultivated friendships with people who are similar to me in this.

I also hate direct confrontation. Why look someone in the eye and say, "I'm angry" when you can, you know, slip a note on Mom and Dad's pillow letting them know just how things stand in their household?


And then there's Dad's old favorite:


Apparently, I was an entertaining child.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Future Music Nerd


If you had told seven-year-old Yours Truly, at that very first piano recital, that I'd grow up to major in music and actually care about stuff like scales and modes and secondary dominant chords and what Beethoven ate for breakfast, I would have laughed you out of the room and, perhaps, beat you over the head with my plastic baton. Funny how life works out.

P.S. Look how straight my little wrists were! Excellent form.

Remembories Week: Wordless Wednesday

A picture really is worth a thousand words.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Princess Foo-Foo Is NOT Amused


I love everything about this picture. Everything. The pouty face (as I recall, my brother Aaron was taking the picture and I was mad at him about something or other), the crossed arms, the bangs I wore for most of my childhood. The tie-died shirt, and the black miniskirt that had been part of a Halloween costume and became my favorite wardrobe staple (though thankfully, Mom never let me out of the house in it that I can recall).

I can still make that face, and I'm sure I do quite often.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Memory Box

In my college days, Dad gave me one of two old foot lockers he had from his Air Force Days. I used it as a coffee table for a long time. In my current apartment, it's in my bedroom, and for years now, it's slowly filled up with memories.

I went through it yesterday for kicks and giggles, and started thinking, "I need to blog about some of this stuff."

As a child, I was what my dad called, "loquacious." I had a lot to say. Not much has changed.

Anyway, many of my memories--a pile of old journals and diaries dating back to 1985, school reports and every possible opinion expressed therein--are both hysterically funny and, I think, an interesting peek at the little girl and teenager who would grow up to be Pagan Megan, world-traveler, kitten-wrangler, music teacher, and loquacious blogger.

Before I got to the printed materials, I pulled out my high school letter jacket. My parents and my Grandma Bean gifted me with this for Christmas in my freshman year. I got to pick it out, and chose the blue body and red sleeves. I chose the bulldog I liked--originally I thought it would be cool to have a bulldog with a clarinet in its mouth, but that would have been too much trouble (and money). I had them stitch a clarinet on the front, instead. When Mom and I went to pick it up, I peered at it and finally said, "Mom...that's not a clarinet." They'd accidentally put a bassoon on my jacket! It was easily fixed, at no extra cost.

I remember proudly wearing my jacket to school in January, only to have Tina Hester (not her real name, of course) snidely remark in English class, "Frankly, Megan, Annie and I laugh at people who letter in band." I don't recall what my reply was. I think it was a single raised eyebrow and a "who gives a shit?" stare. Anyway, Tina Hester never lettered in anything, never made Honor Roll, didn't go to college, and married Dickie Boil, the uber-band geek who was famous for always dropping cymbals at inopportune moments.

Despite the disdain of Tina and her BFF Annie, I was proud of my letter jacket, and wore it for four years.
Look! It totally fits like it did in high school!

Next to come out of the foot locker was a t-shirt I've never been able to part with. I found several Snoopy t-shirts in London gift shops when I was there for London Semester in 1999. I bought one, and then I came back to Chico and gained a ton of weight. These days, the shirt fits again (and smells like cedar chips).

I still have my cap, stole and program from my graduation from California State University, Chico. I decorated my cap, even though I knew there wasn't even a slim chance of my parents being able to find me among the hundreds and hundreds of graduates.

This cute little...painting thing...was made in 4th grade--I know this because that was the year Molly the Collie died and we planted the tree in her honor.

Under this, a stack of old reports beckoned. I have saved a lot of old papers because I was the Queen of Creative Report Covers back in the day. I was so disappointed in college when I realized that most profs just wanted a simple title, and maybe a picture of the musician you were profiling. They just don't appreciate creativity in college!

First up is the big ole term paper I wrote in my junior year U.S. History class. Even back then, young Meg was an animal lover. I chose the Endangered Species Act after finding a National Geographic with a big story about this very topic in our mailbox one day.


In sixth grade, the school put together a book of art and poems by all the kids in the school. I remember I was really proud of my dolphin picture, until I saw the perfectly-drawn dolphin by Desiree Wilkinson. Her dolphin put mine to shame.


In 7th grade, we had to do country reports for social studies. This was the year of Operation Desert Storm, and I was a huge fan of "Voices That Care" (oh, dear God, how embarrassing), so I chose to do my report on Kuwait. I figured that what I lacked in library books on Kuwait was made up for by the endless stacks of Newsweek magazines that Dad saved for me. Yes, that is real sand. The "oil" is black marker covered in Elmer's glue.

Incidentally, this was before computers were a prominent part of my life, and I wrote it all by hand, in cursive.

In my senior year, we had to "live with an author" for our senior project. I chose F. Scott Fitzgerald.

In sophomore year Biology, I got a lot of extra credit because my teacher liked my creative flair. It helped to make up for being in a class with Shanda the Hun, who everyone agreed was a bully of epic proportions. I mostly ignored her, so she and her minions moved on.

At the beginning of Honors US History in my junior year, Mr. Hallam gave us an assignment designed to test our ability to follow directions. I was always proud of this map because 1) I followed every exact direction he gave, and 2) I drew that free-hand.

I loved, loved, LOVED Mrs. Kohn, my senior Honors English teacher. We all did. She was always highly complimentary about my writing, and even back then, I was a little bit of an Anglophile. What's amazing is that it was just a scant three years later that I'd go to London for the first time.

Never one to shy away from controversial topics, I tackled the Huck Finn debate in my sophomore year English class. I argued that it is a necessary part of American literature, even with the use of the n-word, because it portrays a time in our history that needs to be remembered so that we can learn from it. Besides, Mark Twain was a genius. I think I need to re-read some of his books this summer...

Our big paper for our sophomore year was a joint project cooked up between our English and Biology teachers. We wrote one paper, printed two copies, and got a grade from each teacher. Both of my teachers loved my report on the effects of captivity on orcas, inspired by the recent blockbuster film, "Free Willy."

Amazingly, I still have my old mission report from 4th grade. For those of you who weren't so fortunate to grow up in the Golden State, 4th grade social studies standards focus on California history. Since the Spanish missions are a huge part of California history, 4th graders do mission projects. Back in my day (when I walked to school in the snow--uphill both ways--okay, okay, I rode the bus, and it doesn't snow in the Sacramento valley, except once ever 10 years or so), we built our mission models out of old cereal boxes and Popsicle sticks. These days, Michael's sells kits. Kids today have it sooo easy. Anyway, I was assigned Mission San Miguel Archangel, which is located in San Luis Obispo.

In 5th grade, it was time for state reports. Everyone had to do a different state, and there was competition between me and Rod Night for Utah. He wanted it because he was Mormon; I wanted it because my Grandma Cooper lived there and would send me brochures and postcards to spruce up the brochure I had to make.

I won the coin toss, Grandma Cooper came through, and I dedicated my report to my dad (who I've since learned got the hell out of Utah as soon as he could manage it--thank you, United States Air Force, I rather like being a California Girl).

In 8th grade, I once again appealed to Grandma Cooper for some help, and she sent me some great information on the Ute tribe (Ute...Utah) for my Native American Report for US History. Mom helped me with the cover, which is probably one of my best covers ever.

Now we move on to diaries and journals. This is the juicy stuff. I was always boy-crazy, and went through my share of crushes over the years. I also had a way with words that, in retrospect, makes me laugh.

The oldest diary (black with hot pink hearts--eight-year-old Megan's DREAM) starts in 1985 or so. I was obsessed with a boy who lived down the street. He moved away a year or two later, and I felt the loss keenly, until I moved to Folsom and found new boys at my new school.


At some point, I must have decided that it's not fair that boys get to have "Junior" or "the 2nd" or "the 3rd" attached to their names, so I decided that I was way better--I was the first, the last and the ONLY. Then I got to college and found another music major named Megan E. Cooper. Go figure.

(If you can't read my writing, it says, "Megan Elizabeth Cooper Super Dooper Pooper Scooper the loopity looper the first, the last, the ONLY!" Even then, I had a way with words.)

In my teenage years, I stuck to a plain blue notebook. This actually lasted into college. Don't you love how I modified the "Mead" logo into "Megan?"

At the bottom of the box is a calendar that I bought in London to help keep track of the plays I saw, the places I visited, and other important events. I then used it to make my scrapbook as chronological as possible.


In our first Folsom house, I had a fabulous bedroom. It was big, it had two windows (including one with a window seat), and Mom and Dad wallpapered it with my choice--of course, it was musical. I kept scraps of the wallpaper and put them in a scrapbook.

It was a hoot going through my old memories.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Old Journal

I've always kept little notebooks and journals. Not so much diaries, but logs of random stuff. Like my blog, but on paper.

I found one just now from the summer between 8th and 9th grade, and let me tell you, there's some funny stuff. Like the following (misspellings, bad punctuation and all):

To whom it may concern:

I am a thirteen year old girl who just may, one day decide to be an Air Force pilot. My father was in the Air Force, and, I think he was saddened to find his only son didn't want to enlist.

I want to be around planes and bases. I have a great interest in them. But, as a female, I feel that I wouldn't be trusted as a pilot for my home countrie's Air Force. This makes me angry. Because even though I don't like war, who does? Some men have been to weak in combat, and its these men that fall.

If I enlisted in the Air Force, I'd probably get some "weak" job. In America, all men are created equal. Shouldn't that go for women, too?

-Megan Cooper
Folsom, California
In between my rare journeys into feminist thought, I had the typical journal. I had a crush that summer on Steve, an 18-year-old boy on my bowling league team (yeah, I was in a bowling league for a couple of years. Now I can throw a mean gutter ball but not much else). I listed baby names: Victoria Marie, Myra Lyn, Douglas Matthew and Neil Louis.

I think I was 15 when I came up with Hannah, and that one stuck.

There are various packing lists (I went to NYC with a group from school and L.A. with my bowling league) and to-do lists. There's even a budget on how to spend babysitting money and money I earned helping out at the school district.

And stories. I had all kinds of ideas that never got past general descriptions and maybe a chapter here and there. I was really into an idea about a girl named Victoria (but not Vicki) who's father owned race horses. Victoria would raise a sickly little filly into a champion. It was "loosely" based on a book I'd read. Once upon a time I wanted to be a writer. What happened to that? Well, music was the bigger pull, and there is no doubt that I love music. Now I'm getting back into the writing some more, and that's good, too.

I don't know how many wistful games of "True Love" I played, and how many games of "True Love and Romance Forever and Ever" these games turned into when my "True Love score was too low for my tastes.

The inside cover of my notebook has the following list:

Megan's Book
7-1-92
I (heart) Paul
I (heart) Steve more
I (heart) Steve way more
I (heart) Jason (oh, brother)
I (heart) Chris N.
I (heart) soooo many guys! (the dot on the exclamation is a heart)

One of the funnier pages is a list of strange mixes of words that I made up (or found somewhere). It took me a minute to realize that they are acronyms.

Sam Houstin Institution of Technology
Austing School of Snorkeling
Folsom Underwater Comeback Karate
California's Radical Aviation Program
Denver's Academic Moron


I spelled "damn" wrong.

My musical tastes were interesting, as per the graph I found on one page:

Songs I Like:
Guns n' Roses November Rain, Live and Let Die, Don't Cry
Tom Cochrane Life is a highway

Songs I tolerate:
Jump, Jump

Songs I hate:
Tennessee

The tapes I planned on taking on my LA trip were:

Billy Joel
Cocktail Soundtrack
Mariah Carey
Rod Stewart
Madonna
Phantom of the Opera
Queen
Michael W. Smith


This notebook was filled up between my graduation from 8th grade and my first day of high school. That summer, I transitioned from a geeky kid with acne to a band geek with a clarinet. Looking back on it, I can't help but laugh at myself, at how precocious I tried to be. I could be reading the journal of almost any one of the 13-year-old girls I've taught.