Not Much To Say

The last few days I've been...meh.

Oh, I've had some happies, and some busies, and some annoyances and everything else. But overall, I've really, honestly, had the lazies. Then yesterday rolled around, and I found myself once again sleeping past 10:00, feeling like I'd wasted a day, and figuring I might, just might, be making a downward spiral into depression.

I don't think I've actually been depressed these last few days--just sliding towards it. So today, I made a determined leap in the opposite direction. I'm no longer on medication for anxiety/depression, and I don't have health care right now, so this is something I have to do organically, and on my own.

I've been tutoring in a 5th grade classroom on Tuesday and Thursday mornings for a couple of months now. I enjoy it, but sometimes it is hard to get up so early when you don't absolutely have to be there and oooh, it's so cold outside and I'm sooo snuggly warm in my bed. Thursday, I slept right through it. Today I made myself roll out of bed and I went to spend my usual two-and-a-half hours helping the kids with their long division. When I left, I felt energized. The kids seem to like me, and I know I'm helping them get something that their teacher (a fellow Chorale singer) just doesn't have the time to do one-on-one.

I went to the gym for the first time since Wednesday--yes. You read that correctly. I was horrible last week and through the weekend. My eating was okay, so I'm not overly concerned, but I have to nip that mindset that I can put off going to the gym right now. Right. Now.

I did 20 minutes on the Stair Master and 20 minutes (8.75 miles!) on the cycle. I'll run tomorrow and do weights.

I came home and cleaned--my apartment was starting to get filthy, and well, you know I'm a neat freak. Make that a Neat Freak with capital letters. So I mopped, vacuumed, scooped the litter boxes, and straightened.

I finally got around to listing a few things on eBay that needed to be listed (check out my eBay and Etsy shops! Links in the left sidebar!). So it's been a productive day, after several days of limited productivity and downright laziness...and even a day of not unlocking my door at all in 24 hours (Thursday). Aside from helping with cat adoptions on Saturday, and singing some Bach on Sunday, I haven't been at all productive.

Now I'm showered and waiting for the time to get ready for Chorale rehearsal. We're moving into a busy couple of weeks. Dress rehearsals, concerts--three of them!--it's all coming over the next two weekends. After the last concert I'll head up to Mom and Dad's with Millie and Harley in tow.

Tomorrow, I might even finally get my Christmas cards out. They're almost done--the goal was to mail them yesterday...didn't happen, obviously!

So hopefully I'll feel more like blogging in the next few days. Today helped--I'm going to keep fighting that downward slide and hope to hell that a healthy diet, plenty of exercise, and lots of fun things like singing and Christmas and baking will keep me from slipping again.